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I didn't really plan to post a blog about this because this, I thought definitely wasn't worth remembering. But what have you left to do when you have so much to say and you just can't say it--you write it.

For the past N years in my life, I have been avoiding the television because while it was made to entertain, it gave me more stress back when I was an addict. So I stopped and it did help. While I may have become ignorant (generally on not really important things), not watching TV gave me more opportunity to be selfish and think only of myself and everyone, everything close--no local actors/actresses and their sick issues, no prime time drama that haunts till you sleep, no more of anything TVish.

BUT this time of the year, I definitely regret not having a TV. Why? Because I need to support my anger. I need to feed and fill in the holes in my tiny brain craving for the littlest information TV men can provide. Why? Because I want to know what is going on in my little island Mindanao, more so in my beloved country, Philippines.

I need a TV. Having one will make me feel less cheated. I am now stressed with its absence. What's a little more stress so long I can watch? I want to witness how my country goes down. And rise once more. (hopeFully, and I want to emphasise again, with a big F).

SO PITCH, WHAT REALLY IS IT?

Oh, a powerful family in a certain Ampatuan City in Maguindanao Province in my little Mindanao, has been pointed (by all Filipinos except the family itself) but hasn't been considered by the mighty police force of my little Philippines to have initiated, spearheaded, led and all the verbs synonymous, the massacre of the women representatives of another but perhaps not equally powerful family and the others who went with them on their way to file their beloved gubernatorial bet Vice-Mayor Mangadadatu's candidacy. THIS PART COMPLICATED, EH? I tell you, it really feels like this now.

OKAY. SO WHAT ABOUT THE MASSACRE?

As of yesterday, November 25, 57 corpses were discovered since the November 23 attack to the six-vehicle convoy the Mangadadatus and the others victims were in. Guns were used to kill. But definitely these weren't used to rape, mutilate and many other horrible, monstrous moves.

Plus, these 57 were buried in a hole that seemed to have been dug days (or who knows how long?) before the day of the massacre, which tells us that this had been planned. NO, not surprising. Especially when 100 gunmen led by their very own Mayor, who was a junior of his Governor senior. DUH. It's not like a sudden demon possession because we're talking of a hundred killers, a battalion, which we all would not believe had felt the rush to kill only upon seeing the convoy. Although I'd buy they'd been hypnotized before their entrance to their glorious private army.

SO WHAT ARE YOU REALLY POINTING OUT NOW?

That I yet have to watch the television because THE GOVERNMENT of my lovely Philippines has not solved the case yet?

WHY?

Because of the many reasons they know, which by the way, if they don't realise yet, ARE VERY SHALLOW. I mean,

"It definitely would help if, those who feel that they are already being considered as suspects, for them to turn themselves in and cooperate with the law enforcement agencies," Executive Secretary Eduardo Ermita told reporters.


Yes, he wasn't kidding when he said that. My dear, even a thief, who stole a bag of flour, wouldn't show up until a photo of him doing the deed comes out. What more a killer of 57 lives?

To add,

But Espina later backtracked and told reporters “to verify first the report” because the word suspect is a technical term.

“Let’s evaluate first if he will be implicated in the statements. After it is done and concluded, if he is included then his status will change. That’s the time we call him suspect,” the PNP spokesman said.

SO NOW YOU THINK US STUPID JUST CAUSE YOU KNOW SOME JARGON? Jusko!


O, Lord, bless my country, its people and especially those who do not know yet how important their decisions are in our lives.

Allah, I feel ashamed that this has to be the first thing I have to talk about with You. But let the fear of you reign over the hearts of the perpetrators of this (or should I first ask of you to give them hearts?).

AMEN. (But it doesn't end here yet. It's not enough to write.).