[22:47] joy_germina: at least di ba....you canwork under pressure....


i was telling a classmate on ym that i couldnt start working with my proposal yet and it's bothering me big time. and there goes her reply. WOW?

earlier today, i talked with a thesis classmate that i dont have a clear topic yet and i believe im running out of time already. her reply: okay lang man ka peach. kaya man nimo dali-dalion. ako, i need to prepare for everything while you can do it by cramming.


wow. i never knew thats how it appears to them. well. not everything is what it seems. in my case, everything is not what it seems.

WEE.

WOW.

HALA OY.

i do not know what to do. i need help. are my cells in some chaos. they seem too busy with their personal businesses i cannot ask them to cooperate.

this is a sad phase.

camiguin.

here are the pics i got during my field trip (failed trip? lol). it was nice that marianne allowed me to use her cam when my phone went dead. my most beautiful pics were taken using my late(haha!) phone though. so yeah.

camiguin is a very wonderful place. id love to go back. and i think i will. in february. =D

we visited only a few places but wee, it was really fun. there were two cold springs. a fall. the white island. hot spring. and another island. really really fun.

i wish i had more pics though.

WHAT THE EFF.

PITCH WEARS A SMILE. THIS BIG. BLEH.

i am not that happy but weeee, i am happy. haha.

ruth, sam and i did some japanese tutorial this afternoon. the two didnt have any homework to do and the exams ended yesterday so basically, there was nothing to teach. i thought i still knew the characters well until we started writing and i realised that i needed to browse for the chart i would show them. nyaha. in sam's words: ATE PEACH. AKALA KO ALAM MO TO? toink. dumbfounded, i replied: UHM. I JUST WANT TO CHECK IF IM TEACHING THE RIGHT THING. WE WANT TO BE SURE, RIGHT? upon hearing, ruth rolled. on the floor. SHE SERIOUSLY DID. haha. that kid. is. really. weird. in a very interesting way. =D

for two weeks straight, all we did was eat books. well, they ate. i drooled. or i just sat. they drooled. with a little cursing. hahaha. but anyway, this afternoon, we were totally stress-free. yang-yang (the nanny) prepared some ham and egg sandwich for me, which was quite unusual because she'd usually serve waffles or spag or whatever. ruth and sam. they didnt eat. for the first time. whew? well, sam had red bag of chippy. ruth had. she had a lot of surveillance. transferring from our study area to the under-construction coffee shop. WOW. we'll have unlimited coffee as soon as the place opens! [pitch wonders. will she have frappe for free? LOL]

anyway. after playing with the kids, i went home and found this. as in this laptop. done! pitch's cells dance in unison. ive dealt with painful weeks of having abnormal computer and now, myged, it's so smooth and proper again. yehey. yehey. grani, i think, loves me despite the world. lol.

and most importantly, it's raining. killed global warming tonight. it was so hot in the afternoon i almost killed the manong driver for making me wait under the sun for what seemed like three seconds away from forever.


BUT MY MOM. WONT BE HOME UNTIL NEXT WEEK. SHE'S IN LUZON. VACATIONING WHILE HER DAUGHTER IS SUICIDAL. OR SUICIDING. DING DING DING. I NEED HER HOME SOON. BUT SHE DOESNT SEEM TO FEEL SO. SHE WOULNDT PICK MY CALL. IS SHE OKAY. SHE IS SO IGNORING ME. GRRR.

pitch. after a number of minutes. is still smiling. :)

=)

ive been thinking about it, seriously. i mean, ive been seriously thinking about it. bleh. i want to quit my course. i want to end my fake interest. well, ive been blunt about it with my friends and family, but never with myself, i think. when i self-talk, i say: there isnt anything you cant do. and guess what, I ALWAYS SUCCEED IN PERSUASION. whew.



i want to teach. well, my present course can make a teacher out of me but she's gonna be a dull and inefficient one.



before, i told myself, if i couldnt be an engineer, id be a teacher. a teacher that helps make an engineer. well, yeah, all kinds of teachers make an engineer. but. well, whatever.



i want to learn and teach math. because from what ive observed in schools, math teachers are the happiest. atleast in my eyes.



and according to studies also, they are the mentors with highest rate of certainty in the things they teach.



simply put, i dont like my course anymore and i want to try something else.



but when i seriously think about, more serious than my previous contemplating, i end up with this: APRIL IS COMING. FINISH THIS AND ENROL AGAIN IN JUNE.









anyway, anyway. when did you last use the word majorly?

WOW.

PITCH IS A NAME OF A MONSTER.


i feel down. i effing do. i went to a trip to relieve me from the stress of the city and of the mountains (where school's at). but toink, it only gave me more stress. everything was perfect until i noticed i lost my phone.

whew. i dont really mind losing material possessions but myyyyyyyy, that phone hasnt even served me a month yet. plus, father gave it to me. if it were my own money i spent on it (which would be impossible cuz it's quite expensive [it's a sony cybershot]), it would have been less depressing. ooooh. am i depressed? uhm. UBER.

anyway, isaw asked me to solve some logarithm. and i was like, umayged, where did my math go. nyahahaha. I MISS LEARNING.


bye.