IM SUDDENLY SADDENED.

talked with joahanna tonight. she was talking of her nothing-to-do-ness. on a break in singapore. away from family and friends of decade.


out-of-nowhere remembered laine. checked her friendster for updates. she looked happy in pics. under orange trees. ive never seen an orange tree. it's cold in the US, she said.


received a message from erich as soon as he came online. talked a little about snow and hiding celebrities. he works as an assisstant something at a carehouse blah. he cannot go to school yet. london is an expensive place.


I MISS MY FRIENDS. AND I AM SAD FOR THEM. WELL, THEY MAY BE HAPPY WITH THEIR LIVES ABROAD. BUT IT'S STILL SAD. I SWEAR I FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW. HAHA. STUPID PEACHES.

i felt it when he said he feels pressured thinking we are graduating soon and he has yet to start college.

i wanted to jump and hug her when she talked of concerts and friends. i know she'd rather stay home.

i remember her telling me 'i do not like it here'.


I WISH I COULD PUT ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVE IN ONE PLACE WITH THE PEOPLE THEY LOVE AND THE PEOPLE THEY LOVE LOVE. SO YEAH. IM GONNA HAVE TO BUILD ANOTHER WORLD, EH? =P

SERIOUSLY. I WANT ALL MY FRIENDS HAPPY. PLEASE, MAKE THEM HAPPY. Thanks.